Last night on earth

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If tomorrow never comes
I want you to know right now that i,
I'm gonna love you until the day i die
If tomorrow falls asleep can you hold me first
I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on earth

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

love breaks your heart
love takes no less than everything
love makes it hard
and it fades away so easily
love breaks the chains
love aches for everyone of us
love takes the tears and pain
and turns it into the beauty that remains

i duno whats wrong with blogger.. the words just bcame real itsy and bitsy. the font i'm currently using is LARGE.i just told my sis i had given up on blogging.. but since im online.. why not..?at least i can express my grieves...
the labtop im using now is my bro's.. i hate that i have to actually di sheng xia qi and ask him to lend me his labtop.. what the...
hate to be complacent..but i cant take it anymore.. so what if you're a boy? why are chinese just so traditional about liking boys more? are passing on your family surnames that important? like hello??!! i thought we were living in the 21st century.. turns out we're no different from the qing, tang and the whatever other dynasty ppl..
ok, i dun even want to type out the injustice i feel..makes my blood boil. i've realli been trying to control my emotions... broke down and cried just now.. was sharing my grievances with my sis when she said sth realli awful.. i admit i cant realli stand up for myself but was it realli necessary to say those things?
my mum was hit by as she states a "16 foot long pipe" while eating at the coffee shop just now.. when she came back she was crying quite badly.. the whole nose was realli red.. sigh. she just went for the xray.. thank god she's alright. wanna express my thanks to eugene n deniece for calling to ask how she was... god bless u guys. haha
haven found a job just yet.. just too lazy to even find a job... my dad refuses to let me work in the petrol station. he says the influence there is far worse than mac's..
yeah?and i was just thinking about how much i missed going to school.. its so ironic when you're actually schooling, you keep wanting to pon-tang everyday.. now that school's over, you kinda miss it...
oh goodness, realli dreading CNY..haven even bought new clothes.. seriously i realli dun give a crap bout it anymore.. but when i think about my grandaunts,aunts zi zi zha zha-ing, it makes me very, and i mean very annoyed. sometimes(pardon me) i feel like just askin to shut the h*ll up, as the saying goes, "ni bu shuo hua me ren dang ni shi ya ba"... especially that uncle irving.. he'll probably question me infront of everyone asking"you mean you cant even make it to CJ for first three months? its like one of the worst JCs leh..."ya la. so what if you're a lawyer??bl***Y H*ll"[excuse the language,feeling irritated].. and the usual, they'll probably say i've put on weight.. sigh you guys have mouths, i'll just pretend u guys arent even there..
my period just came so kinda pms-ing..
alright i think i'll just stop here.. my disgusting-annoying brother is urging me to get off and he's sprouting vulgarities like no one's business..

im too young...too immature to understand..

have a great great blessed feb!

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